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Welcome back to our bible study! We have exciting new lore waiting just around the corner, but for today, we will be continuing her look at Wooyoung's page. Our sacred practice for the day is to build a sermon around a line in Wooyoung's page to see what truths we can glean and share. Join us!
04: sacred practice
GD: Hmm no lines are immediately jumping out to me
But there is one that I'm mulling over
Bobby: I was updating the transcript
GD: I guess I need to back up
What do you think Woo means when he says he could see "pensions and sunbeds"?
This is my fault for rushing us through our thoughts
Bobby: Pensions I know are like vacation homes
GD: Ahhh
Bobby: Sunbeds make me think lounge chairs
GD: Yes, it was the pensions that holding me up
I was thinking like a retirement pension, so vacation homes does make me think lounge chairs as well. which is sad
Like empty nice houses and lounge chairs presumably covered in this like yellow dust
Anyways, I think I will pick "when I stepped onto the sand, I could feel the heat rising."
Bobby: Okay. I don't have mine yet but it wouldn't have been that one
GD: Perfect
I like this line because it reminds me of this idea of the first step into adventure. He's taking a step towards his goals, and taken out of context of the broader story, and within the context of this page, it's his first step towards this path that he's on. But what you don't see on this page are all the other steps he's taken to be in the position to take this step. I was thinking about this in the context of our social media accounts the other day, which I know is a weird context. But like, you know we've done this giveaway that has been fairly successful, and I was really happy to be in a place where I could do a giveaway and actually have people sign up. And it made me think about all of the teeny tiny steps I've taken in the past 3 years to be at a point where I can do this. Or even when we vendor at events. When I started these accounts and started making stuff and got into ateez, I didn't plan any of this or think one day I'll be an ateez vendor. But each step is a step, no matter how small you know? And I like that here in this moment, Wooyoung is taking another step on this path that he's been steadily walking down. We've seen him overcome his fears, grow close to others, nurture this desire to help people, and to me, I think the heat rising shows that he's where he's supposed to be. This passion to keep going forward.
So that's what my sermon would be about--knowing that our steps build on top of each other and that we will eventually find the path where the heat rises.
Bobby: I like the heat rising as a metaphor.
It reminds me of that gamer tweet from ages ago--that you know you're on the right path when you keep running into enemies.
And I've actually been thinking about this lately
So, as you know, I've been dabbling in book binding and more recently sticker making
Even journaling has been a recent endeavor
And it can be really difficult when I'm looking at inspiration on Pinterest not to feel overwhelmed and immediately defeated because these other people can do so many more things and better things than I can do
I really have to remind myself all the time that those people have put more hours into their craft than I have. They probably started out a lot like I did
And I can't skip steps. I have to take each of those steps myself
GD: Yeah, I think about that a lot too.
There's no shortcuts
You do have to take each step yourself
You can sort of learn from others? But that’s more like having someone hold your hand while you take the steps. You ultimately still have to take them
Bobby: Right
And it's easy to feel like "oh man, I'm never going to catch up"
Who says I need to?
My path is different
I have a different destination
GD: I was thinking about that too
I sometimes (almost always) feel like I'm doing social media wrong. Like, I used to try to be active on writing twitter, and I just hated it so much. And then I thought I would be active on instagram to like... get a following for any future book projects
Bobby: What does writing twitter even look like
GD: And then now, with my Ateez socials, I feel like... I'm not doing it like everyone else. I feel pressure to keep my page as like GOs only and then have a different one for shops and bullshit, but then, I don't want to do that. I don't care if this isn't how other goms do it. For the first time in my life I'm just posting whatever I want to, and I think maybe that's the key
my account will never look like other accounts
And people who don't like it, don't have to follow my account
Bobby: Our blog won't be like all the other blogs
GD: But like, isn't the point for me to figure out how to do things in a way where they're
bringing me joy?
Yes, exactly
Bobby: If you build it. . .
GD: Because perhaps our field of dreams is our field of dreams
Same tiny brain cell
Bobby: We found it
Wasn't sure it was functioning today
GD: It's been a weird/busy day
Hard to settle
And as we discussed, being settled and safe is key
Bobby: Right, yes. I was super settled yesterday which I think is why the day was so nice even though I didn't do much of anything. Except Lego. Since I gave myself a quest to earn an iPad, I feel like anytime I'm not working on it, I'm letting myself down
But I did not do any iPad questing yesterday. And it was a nice break. Guilt free break
And I am aware it is dumb to feel guilt for a quest I've given myself
So
GD: How I constantly feel, so I get it
Bobby: My line that I've picked is "I could see the men in Black Fedora were in a glass prison."
It's not even really the context of the line that strikes me, but that it reminds me of San's line from One Day at a Time: "If you think you're trapped/ You're in that box you built yourself/ I'll help you break it" which is my favorite ATEEZ lyric. Because while we are often trapped by circumstances or other people, so often we are trapped only by our own minds. I often wonder what I could really do if I would just stop being afraid, stop being intimidated by what other people can do so much better than I can. What if I weren't scared to death to actually try to make basco's booktiny a Thing? I genuinely love teaching and love my school and have no desire to leave. But also my urge to create far outstrips my ability to consume. Like, these journals have to go somewhere.
And so, my sermon would be about knowing the difference between your real prisons and your self-inflicted ones. And having the courage to break out when it is in your power
GD: When you shared the line, that's immediately what I thought of too
I think you should make Basco's Booktiny a thing.
But you already know that
Bobby: Yes, I know
GD: I think more often than not our prisons are self-inflicted, and they are the hardest to figure out how to break down
Bobby: Yes, I agree. There's no escaping my own mind
GD: I'm thinking about how I build a prison of obligations for myself
Promise a bunch of people a bunch of things, and while they probably wouldn't care if I was like "hey, I really can't do this today, I'm not feeling up to it." I personally feel like that's the worst thing I could do
Is it time for final thoughts and connections?
05: connections and takeaways (previously mental murder board)
Bobby: I love Wooyoung
I know this entry isn't even really about him
GD: I felt like this scene was more action oriented than we normally get? I don't know if that's true, but it felt like we were moving a plot forward instead of deep internal thoughts, and that's possibly because we've already had a lot of internal growth from Wooyoung already
Bobby: But I love that even though he had no idea the path he started on would lead him to this beach, he still kept going. And never doubted himself
Stage fright is a thing of his past
Or maybe it's not. Doesn't matter
I'm juggling too many thoughts and I think I need to watch Jongho again
GD: This feels like a Wooyoung who has decided there are more important things than whether people are looking at him on stage, and those things include the people who are with him now
Bobby: I love Wooyoung
Both of them
GD: Yes.
Bobby: I feel very much like that ktiny who tweeted a photo of WooJjong and said something like "if you don't love these two you will never see heaven"
GD: Mmmm
A good tweet.
Okay, shall we close?
06: closing
Bobby: Prayer, hymn, patron saints, rosary
Sometimes we switch prayer and hymn and I don't think it matters
GD: My prayer is that Wooyoung, both the story Wooyoung and the real Wooyoung, continues to be that person that unites the group together, and that he himself realizes what a valuable asset that is to the team.
Bobby: Yes. I do hope he fully understands his own worth
GD: Should we do One Day at a Time?
Has it already been done?
Bobby: Amazingly, ODAT is free
GD: I have no idea who I want to be my patron saint
Baddie class is over
Bobby: I need to grade essays
Who can help me grade essays
Like who can really focus up
GD: Hmmmm
Seonghwa?
Bobby: I was thinking Hwa. A sign
GD: I need to clean, but also, I sort of feel like maybe I should make a set of beads to refill some of these bracelets?
But also my husband is going on a work trip tomorrow for two days and I will be the lady of the house
Bobby: Are you not always the lady of the house?
GD: Perhaps I need Hongjoong? Who has much energy and leads well.
I mean I am, but I usually let the man of the house do many things
And I will now be tasked with those
Including and not limited to, taking care of our son after he gets home from work and helping him fall asleep
Bobby: Hongjoong does have much energy, but he's also a source of chaos
GD: Maybe I also need Seonghwa
Bobby: I'd pick San, I think
GD: I need to maybe keep my shit together
San it is
Bobby: I think San is more capable than people give him credit for. Like with all these Atinys acting like he isn't a grown man who can take care of himself and won't knock over a bunch of bottles of liquor
On his head in his sleep I mean
GD: Yes, I agree
And he has that calm stability
I think San is right
Nothing left but the rosary
Bobby: 8 makes
GD: 1 team
Bobby: Be the light
GD: Halazia
Thank you for joining us as we continued our discussion of Wooyoung's page! We hope you are able to take something from Wooyoung's page into this week with you. Next week we will be back with Hongjoong, so we will see you then!
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